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Arg

So, I'm back to super depressed. I honestly want to give up because I fail at everything. I wonder if it is time to just end things. I'm so worthless...
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Numb

I have lone out lived my usefulness. I really need to find a way to end it. I wish I had the courage to end this pointless life.
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Can't pick myself up

I'm so down lately. I still feel like an epic failure. Every part of me wants to give up and walk away. I'm a bit worried because my workouts are not helping anymore. I want to give up. I'm done...
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Nothing Changes

I still seem to hate my life. I have no real friends, my family stresses me out. I do think if I vanished it wouldn't make a difference, because I don't make a difference. I hate that I wake up. The only joy i get anymore is in my workouts. I will push until I can go no further. My only reward in life is the muscle soreness I get. And that has become less common. I'm such a worthless human. I want to understand why I'm not allowed to be happy...
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So, I now know I for sure am the problem. All I do is fuck things up. I'm sick of pretending to be strong. I hate that I'm still alive, and want so much to die. I should never have been born. Please make me die...
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Hello?

Is there anybody out there or am I really this alone? Why is is impossible for me to be happy? I hope my last day comes soon.
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